My response to the Journey Journal assignment.

I have 46 journal entries and I have 3 (on the date of this post) more on my tumblr account.  I decided to continue the journey journal simply naming every entry with a number.  I’m from square one, but on the first post I put I mention that it is a continuation of what I was doing on the journal.  I do hope not to lose the habit of writing, which I guess I will be able to keep as long as I can sit down and just really be with me, myself and I for more than 4 hours, more or less. 

Have I learned or made better something of my persona? I do think I have.  Sitting down to write my last two entries on the journal made me decide on continuing the journal only.  I can write my thoughts faster, I can really post anything that comes to mind just knowing that I’m sending this out to the world, and my 40 followers, and not really bothering for what might come of my writing.  I have considered the journal to be a cathartic element, so I will keep it that way.

I have been able to go with my first thoughts pretty well throughout the assignment and I hope to be able to really fix thoughts faster than fast, seeing as it makes no real sense to “write your first thoughts” because first thoughts can sometimes be like “blue green magenta lets write other colours with a u because british and without spacing because yespurplemarronfive what is this im thinking. THE CHUPACABRA!!!”  And so on.  I believe, or I like to (believe), that first thoughts is something you work on, somewhat like being able to socialize. I’m not one to talk much, but I think I have learned much in the past years of my life.  I guess like a decade ago I would talk a max of 100 words in a day. That bad, maybe.  But I’m probably exaggerating.

About the anti-rules, I think I had a hard time with “don’t cross out.”  Although I always knew this was referring to thoughts, for example, to not cross out a complete, or part of a, thought because you thought it was ugly, or something indignant, or maybe something you just didn’t want to ever thing you would come to think of.  To not cross out what you may consider “dark thoughts.”  I believe expressing this on paper, and really organizing these thoughts no matter how bad, really helps one with getting through it.  An example would be something like suicide.  It is a fact that saying suicide helps one to really associate the gravity of the act for a person. So writing your thoughts really helps you, and you’ll be thinking a bit more on that “dark thought” a bit more, and come to peace with it in the end. (At least this was my processing, not with something like suicide though.)

Another rule I had a few encounters more than most, was the grammar; to not worry about grammar, punctuation and spelling.  I’m somewhat of a grammar-Nazi so this is a must. Sometimes...  Most times, I would cross out the word I had written wrong just to be sure I knew how to write it, and to not get lazy with writing as one might do on text messages. So, this thought relates to the crossing out. I did it on words I knew were incorrectly written.

What have I learned about myself with this assignment?
Well, one, I have been able to get back on track with how I used to do things back in high school. I would do really good assignments whenever I had time for myself, and I had motivation to write or work, or really understand all the abstracts concepts in physics, for example.  Although I am a person who really likes to have company, with one person really, I do well when I am by myself to do my work, and really find what there is to learn by doing said work.  I don’t really know how it works for some people, but this is probably a reason why I like to be with myself; I guess I can trust myself to do a great job and what is expected if I work at it alone.

PS:  This blog post could not have been written with less words, probably more though. I acknowledge that the example for the first anti-rule was a bit excessive with detail, but I do hope you get the complete idea.

PSS:  (an excerpt from my first attempt at writing this blog post.)

---Whenever I got cluttered with work, reminding myself to do the journal first helped me a lot. This would clear my head, and allow me to focus on the matters at hand. Other times, the journal worked as a friend; I would write the kind of things you keep secret to yourself.

Writing a jugular was particularly fun at times.  The atmosphere of my thoughts would get really serious, I felt that my facial expression would also change.  It felt like as if you reached a milestone for that moment.  The jugulars for me were moments of a change in attitude toward a topic one writes about.  Basically, the jugular was a somewhat spontaneous line of thought that emerged from a previous thought one had.---